okay, so we all officially fail at this whole blog thing . . . it's not like our lives are that boring . . . i mean, i know both of you, and i know that you both have stuph that you could update about . . . and i know that i have stuph i could write about, but . . . well, i dunno, we might have to put some sort of censor on this if i wrote a lot of what i'd like to write about, so . . . i guess i'll just stick to being a failiure at this along with you two . . . mmk well, i love you both . . . k, i'm done . . .

---> Signing Off >> Wednesday, July 14, 2004 > 03:49 a.m.

hmmm . . .

so, why is it that life is so complicated . . . lately i just feel like telling God that if this is a joke, it's not funny! mostly i'm content, but there are just days where i don't "get" life and i don't understand why it is that it has to be so unfair . . . i mean, i get that "life isn't fair" but does that mean that it always has to be unfair . . . ? *shrugs* who knows *shrugs*
well, i told liss i'd do this, so here it is . . . cross my heart(etc.) that i'll answer any questions asked . . . *gives dubious look, but knows that a promise is a promise*

"I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything. Kinda like a dimented version of truth or dare without the dare, huh? Heheh but please take this chance to ask ANYTHING. I promise I'm really open about answering. Even if it's embarassing or indecent or whatever."

have an amazing day!
love you guys!
k, i'm done . . .

---> Signing Off >> Saturday, April 17, 2004 > 01:04 p.m.

melissa erin suarez! you said that we get pictures and i want to see them now! :P *pouts* okay, so now that i'm done with that . . .
life . . .hmmm . . . well, it pretty much sucks at the moment . . . no, correction, life doesn't suck, i suck (i shouldn't be blaming life for my shortcomings) . . . on a bright note, nikki's having a baby! hey, at least now i'm guaranteed to have kids in my life even if i never end up with any of my own . . . i'm just really happy for her! k, well, off to choir . . .
love you guys!
k, i'm done . . .

---> Signing Off >> Wednesday, January 21, 2004 > 03:41 p.m.

so, in like 8 hours, i'm gonna go to the oral surgon and they're gonna pump me full of drugs, rip out some of my teeth, pump me full of more drugs, then send me home with my parents where i'll get to spend the next two to three days with them and without the ability to talk! fuuuun, huh?!?! *gets a sad pathetic look on her face* idonwanna . . . so i got to go to denver, which was fun, and i loved, but . . . i dunno . . . i mean, i was really happy to see the nobles and kinder and nicole and kimmie, but . . . well, i didn't get to see liss or milly, and . . . i dunno . . . i just feel like nicole still blames me for the fact that we haven't talked in a while and even though she says she understands, i still don't think she completely believes me about not being able to get ahold of her . . . and then there's the whole $300 thing too . . . i dunno . . .i mean, i still consider nicole my best friend (we've been through a whole lot together) but, well . . . i know that there are definitely people that i'm closer to right now, and . . . well, aren't you supposed to be able to talk to your best friend about anything? and right now, i definitely don;t feel like i can talk to her about anything and everything, ya know? especially my decision to wait to have sex till marriage . . . okay, so i dunno if y'all wanna hear about this or not, but it's bugging me, so . . . i try really hard not to give any of my friends back home crap about their decisions not to stay virgins until their married . . . i never said anything to nicole and brandon when they moved in together, i never gave erin and shawn any crap when erin told me they were sleeping together, and i told kinder that it was her decision when she told me that she and bart had started having sex . . . and yet, whenever i get into a conversation with my friends back home about my decision to wait, it's like i'm doing something wrong by waiting. what the hell?! they know what i believe, but i have always told them that it's their decision and that i have no place to judge. all i'm asking for is the same: the acknowledgement that it's my decision to wait and that it's completely separate from their decisions . . . okay, so i'm done complaining now . . . so in a couple of days i'll be out of this house and rob and steph and kimmie will be back!! yay!! i still think that melissa needs to get her butt down here to visit, but one thing at a time . . . i actually think that i'm ready to go back to school . . . for many reasons, but i actully have a couple of classes that i'm pretty excited about too . . . i'm still trying to decide whether i'm gonna try out for sader choir again this semester or not . . . i'd love to be in it, but i dunno . . . every time i hear them sing, i feel like i don't belong with the rest of them . . . and i can just hear people saying, "what's the worst that can happen? you try out and don't get in and you're no worse off than you are now" - the problem is that i'm just not sure what it'd do to my self esteem to get rejected again, even though a lot of the actual rejection is in my head . . . who knows? i should just try. *shrugs* if anyone who's heard me sing and has any opinion wants to give me any advice, i could totally use it . . . mmk, well, i'm gonna et some sleep before they knock me out with drugs . . . hey, at least i should go back to school really well rested, huh? :D i love you guys and you have no idea how much i miss you! k, i'm done . . .

---> Signing Off >> Friday, January 9, 2004 > 12:43 a.m.

so, you two both suck at this updating thing! it's been over two months since either of you updated!!! :P *pplt*
so, i don't wanna i don't wanna i don't wanna i don't wanna i don't wanna i don't wanna! how's that for specific? i don't want to anymore and i hate it b/c i can't not!
it sucks!
so . . . night
mmk, i'm done . . .

---> Signing Off >> Wednesday, December 17, 2003 > 05:31 a.m.

so, i give up . . .
it's all too much: parents, school, boys . . . i need a break. but even break isn't gonna be a break . . . i'm gonna have family to deal with and i need to make sure that i save enough money for going to colorado. i need a real break. i need to get from life for a while. i'm so exhausted . . . not physically, not mentally, but emotionally. th problem is that i don't know what to do about it . . . *shrugs*
who knows? well, love you guys!
k, i'm done . . .

---> Signing Off >> Wednesday, December 3, 2003 > 06:19 p.m.

so, apparently in a past life i was a timid, constrained, quiet romanian philosopher/thinker . . . holy! so what? am i making up for it in this life? wow - also, apparently the lesson i'm supposed to learn from my past life is that i'm supposed to trust my intuition . . . mmk, so that i don't have an issue with . . . the problem is that my intuition tells me directly contadictory things . . . it makes listening to it really confusing and extremely tiring . . . do you go to the school that you've already been accepted by, even though it's not the one you really want to go to, or do you wait and hope that you'll be accepted at the school you know you aren't good enough to get into? and if you do choose the school where you've already been accepted, what happens later if you find out that you would have been accepted at the place you really wanted to be?
ah! i hate it when all the voices talk at once! it's too hard!
*side note: i saw a bumper sticker the other day that said "9 out of the 10 voices in my head say 'don't shoot'" sounds familiar . . .one minute 9 out of 10 voices have a majority one way, and the next minute, 8 out of 10 have the majority the other way*

and now back to our regularly scheduled programming . . .

hmmm . . . i'm tired . . . in so many ways . . . what would happen if i just left . . . just drove until i hit mountains? *note: i mean mountains, not those stupid hill things they classify as mountains here* what if i just drove until i ran out of gas and money and found a job where ever i stopped and just lived there?
i almost did it the other night too . . . i almost just got in my car at 2 in the morning and drove to cascade . . . but i didn't . . . i wish that i were the kind of person who would, but i guess i'm not . . .
so, it snowed today!!! yay!!! i'm so happy for winter! i need to go buy some warmer clothes though . . . i also need a job . . . i need at least $300 put away by finals!
mmk, well, labs gonna close, so i'm gonna go . . .
night guys
love y'all
k, i'm done . . .

---> Signing Off >> Wednesday, November 5, 2003 > 10:30 p.m.

eek . . . so this is rediculous! i'm so COLD! *shivers* it's rob's fault, too! he stole all of my body heat! and now i'm stuck sitting in the middle of the comp lab shivering . . . i need coffee . . . and a warm fire . . . and a mystery novel . . . and a thunderstorm . . . mmmmmm . . . happy thoughts! :D
mmk, so back to reality and the freakin soap opera that is my life!!! so i went to talk to jayme last night and basically, she said she didn't wanna talk . . . after all this crap and drama and all the bullshit i keep hearing from everyone she talks to about how she misses me and wants to get this all figured out, she doesn't want to talk! (plus i found out that she's been having issues with me since like the beginning of the school year . . .thanks for telling me!)grrr! well, i'm done . . . if she wants to talk to me at some point, then i'll do exactly what i was planning on doing and tell her what i feel, and then i have no problem listening to what she has to say, but overall, i'm done! i can't deal with any more of this girl crap (not just with her, but in general)!
so we came to the conclusion, last night,that i'm omnipotent . . . i'm not omnicient, but i am omnipotent . . . and i'm gonna create a time loop, and it's gonna work because i say it's going to and no one is allowed to contradict me . . . sound good? i thought so . . . :D (teehee)
mmk, well, i'm going to go do other unproductive things now . . . talk to y'all later . . .
liss, i'll call you
love you guys!
k, i'm done . . .

---> Signing Off >> Monday, October 27, 2003 > 11:47 a.m.

sharkbait!

so, i'm done . . . i'm driving west until i hit water, then i'm gonna swim until i hit land or drown and get eaten by a shark . . .

have you ever been at a point where you just feel . . . replaceable . . . like if it wasn't you sitting there, if it was anyone else, the people around you really wouldn't care that much . . . and it's not their fault - you know that you feel that way because you're a freak and have issues, but you still feel like it really wouldn't matter that much if all of a sudden, it wasn't you, it was some other random person . . . ?shrugs?
i hate feeling this way . . . if i'm honest with myself, i think this is probably one of my biggest fears: that i really have no affect on the people around me and that i really don't matter that much to them . . . and that thought kills me . . . because my friends mean so much to me and if i'm just "a warm body" as kimmie calls it, i dunno how i'd be able to handle that . . . and it all comes back to self esteem issues because i really don't feel like i deserve you guys, so . . . i dunno . . .

and then there's this whole mike thing that makes my life just that much more . . . weird - i think i've decided that i really just don't wanna be alone with him . . . i like hanging out with him in a group of people - i mean, he seems like a really nice guy, but when i was driving him home the other night, he started hitting on me again . . . like majorly . . . first i have to question his sanity because . . . i mean . . . it's me! plus, i just met the kid . . . he doesn't even know me . . . i dunno . . . i don't get it . . . and if it was just, like, subtle stuph, i could probably just ignore it or explain it away as something else, but this isn't subtle at all, so . . . i figure that since he doesn't do it when other people are around, i'm just gonna avoid being alone with him . . .

mmk, so off to do essays! yummy! *highly excited look on face* <-- does anyone else notice that i get even more sarcastic when i'm in a depressed mood? (i know, i know, i'm in shock, too - but apparently it is possible for me to become even more sarcastic that i normally am!)

love you guys!
k, i'm done . . .

---> Signing Off >> Tuesday, October 21, 2003 > 01:41 p.m.

Wow, guys. CALM DOWN! Seriously, you are WAY too bouncy and hyper. -_-; What's with the depressing-sounding posts? Are you guys really that bored?

So, I'm going to ALASKA!! lol I'm going to meet my mother's best friend's son. We've been talking online and on the phone, and it's sad how much we have in common~ We even have the same kind of asthma. I swear, if he weren't blonde, we could have been separated at birth. I'm trying desperately not to have a crush on him, but it isn't working very well... grrr...

Anyhow, I'm going to fix that scrollbar today. Really... Love you guys and miss you muchos~ Can't wait to see you in November!!

---> Signing Off >> Monday, October 6, 2003 > 09:33 a.m.

so liss, sounds like you had an . . .umm . . . *coughs* . . .interesting weekend, huh?! hope you had TONS of fun chica!
so, my life . . . umm . . . well . . . (yeah, that really is how much is going on right now!) i wanna go to the coast! i wanna go to CO! i wanna go to NY and see natalia! yeah . . . i'm sorta trying to find a job . . .i need one. i also need to get paid by the people that i'm working for right now . . . *sighs* oh well . . .
so i'm REALLY sick of living with girls! steph and i came to a conclusion last night: girls as a concept are actually pretty cool . . . as individuals, though, they suck! guys as individuals are pretty awesome, but as a concept, they suck . . . interesting balance, huh? yeah, i thought so . . .
mmk, well, i hafta go to work (dammnit) - i don't wanna! i wanna stay here and watch a movie or take a nap . . . hmmm . . .oh well . . .
k, i'm done . . .

---> Signing Off >> Tuesday, September 30, 2003 > 03:17 p.m.

Things are interesting, I am tired, and I have ten minutes until class, and then I have to work at 4 and I am feeling listless, and melancholy....I would almost rather that the Hedgehog be in charge than melancholy, because when he is in charge, he doesn't go away for a long time. Anyway...I want to write, but I don't have the initiative to write right now, and it kinda sucks. I am so freaking depressed that I have major issues doing anything....I just want to lay in bed all day long and do absolutely nothing, except for play magic...anyway I should go, and I just realized that ther aren't too many periods in here, 'cause elipses don't count. Love ya both!

Rob

---> Signing Off >> Tuesday, September 23, 2003 > 01:17 p.m.

i hate getting in moods like this . . . they suck! i don't even know what started it . . . tonight was a good night, and then it just hit me . . . and i start to wonder if the things my parents are always saying about me are really true . . . i wonder if they've been right all along and and if i've just been arrogant in assuming that they're wrong . . . and i hate this all even more because i really feel like a girl right now and i HATE feeling "girlie"
well, liss, i got your message - i'll call ya tomorrow
love you guys!
k, i'm done . . .

---> Signing Off >> Thursday, September 18, 2003 > 01:47 a.m.

okay, so first may i say that of course you're on your own for food and lodging liss! there's NO WAY you could stay at my house and eat there or stay, like, in my dorm room (i really don't have room in there with my 7 other roommates and all!) : P - in all seriousness, laydee, of course you don't hafta worry about food and a place to stay! i'll take care of ya! : D all you hafta do is come (and i'm working on arrangements for that . . . )!
next, may i say that (as hard as it is to believe) i really think that my mind has gone downhill! i mean, i have a bad, BAD, BAD mind!!!! it has started going to some extremely amusing, but very BAD places lately! (although, may i say that i don't think that kimmy is helping the situation, and i know that neither of you have ever helped it!!!!!)
okay, well, i'll write more later, but it's 2:30 and i really should go to sleep if i want to get up in the morning and shower and be ready at 8:45 to decide if i'm going to grammar and usage . . . that's my new plan: i get up, get ready, and "decide when i get there" whether i'm going or not . . . it is my new way of attempting to trick my brain into getting up - see, if i didn't do it that way, then i'd plan on getting up at 9 or 9:30 to get ready and go to chapel, but i'd never end up getting out of bed and i'd miss chapel completely, ruining my whole plan to be done by the end of october . . .
mmk, well, i love you guys! : D
k, i'm done . . .

---> Signing Off >> Monday, September 15, 2003 > 02:13 a.m.

MERPH! I will eat your left arm!! AND YOUR'S, TOO!! *gnawgnawgnaw* Oh wait... aheh...

SO! How's everyone's life going??? Mine is good. I broke the heart of a 15-year-old boy this week, so my week has been nice and well-rounded. I DECIDED WHAT I THINK I WANT TO DO WITH THE REST OF MY LIFE!!! Or at least the immediate rest of my life. I want to be an editor. At a magazine, mebbe. Or a publisher's place. That would be lots of fun, RIGHT?? hehe... GOD, I'M HYPER.

I'm going to see a movie tonight, though. Thank god. If it weren't for my li'l Chisuchini buddy, I'd be home alone, bored, again. -_-; SAVE ME FROM THE BOREDOM!!!! ^^;; Kata, if you were able to fly me up there for the weekend after Thanksgiving, would you be able to find me somewhere to stay and somehow for me to eat, or am I on my own for those?

That's all, FOLKS! Miss you! Love you! Hugs to everyone!!

---> Signing Off >> Friday, September 12, 2003 > 09:09 p.m.

So yeah, it has been awhile. *blushes furiously* But I am here now, so I get to tell you everything that has happened in the past month and three days that have passed since my last post. Well, the last you knew, I wasn't going to NNU. That changed. Thanks to a god-sent donor, who gave me $5,000 and blessed me with a second chance. Um....I don't think that anything happened before that. I did a whole lot of whining to myself, and stuff like that, and then I got to come here, which I found out about four days before I had to leave. But that's ok.

So, now that I am back, my sites have gone off hiatus, though Imaginings isn't going all that well. I need to do some revamping type stuff. But I also need to catch up on my readng for my lit classes, and my writing class, and I need to get ahead on my Spanish, or I will fall behind there too. *sighs dramatically* I am having lots of fun...I am reading Dracula!!! It is so good, we are reading it for British Novels, Issa, you need to be here. *starts to cry* *gets a hold on himself* So, life still sucks. I won't rant about capitalism, b/c that isn't what it is right now. Right now...hmmm, what would it be. I would probably have to say. Society itself. It is so stupid. Why do we have to put people into boxes? And why do people think that there is only one way to be? I am insanely angry at that philosophy. If I want to be different, why is that bad? If I am being true to myself, what can go wrong? Well, things can always go wrong, but at least I would have tried. But things can go wrong even if you are doing the "accepted, tried and true" line of bull. I am different, and I don't think that people really realize how different, it bugs me sometimes, that they think, or not even think, but "know" that I am going to do all the things I am supposed to do. Like get married and have kids. Get a "normal" job, buy a house, lie in freaking Idaho for the rest of my life. *sighs*

I think that is enough rant for now. Maybe I will continue later.

Rob

---> Signing Off >> Friday, September 5, 2003 > 11:45 a.m.

mmk . . . so we (and by we i mean the two of you) suck at posting here! the last entry was almost 2 weeks ago and that was mine (along with the three before that) - you especially, liss, need to post so i know what's going on (i admit, though, that i need to try to call you . . . hmmm . . .i will . . .soon)but i miss you, so . . . mmk, i'm done with that
so i need to do my math - i hate it, it doesn't work in my head (shut up both of you!) though it'd probably help if i paid more attention in class . . . something to ponder . . .
okay, well, i'm gonna actually go work on my homework - i swear, i'm really doing better this year! my room is all organized and clean and i'm doing my homework and studying (i actually read from my math textbook yesterday *gasp*) - hopefully i can keep it up - i'm trying!!!
k, i love y'all! and i will call you liss, i promise!
k, i'm done . . .

---> Signing Off >> Friday, August 29, 2003 > 01:00 p.m.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! 8 - @
*warning*
the following is not happy things and anyone who is in a happy mood or doesn't wanna deal with hearing my crap should stop reading this right now - actually, if you happen to fit under the happy category, you can kindly click the "X" in the upper right hand corner and go find a busy highway to play on! (sorry, if you can't tell, i'm not in the best mood)
i can't deal with this anymore - i hate living in this house! i hate having the "perfect-pta member/contry club/martha-stewart-wannabe-mom" and the "successful-businessman-turned-college-professor-who-spends-all-his-time-trying-to-improve-the-school-dad" and the "straightA-responsible-cute-sweet-never-does-anything-wrong sister" and being the one thing that keeps them from being the perfect family with the perfect lives! i hate how i'm the flaw in our family!i hate how the whole world (with few exceptions)buys into those images! i'm sick of hearing how stupid/wreckless/irresponsible/lazy/messy i am! and i hate how they can all turn the few good traits that i think i have into bad things!!!!!!!! i'm seriously considering spending winter break in colorado or san diego! all of it! it would mean missing christmas with my family, but i'm not sure i care at this point . . . i really would like to pick one of the two, go there as soon as finals are done, get a job for the break, and stay there working until the day before i need to be back for 2nd semester!!!!!!!!! i can't deal with this - i need to get out! and a week seems like an eternity right now! i need distractions . . . work, friends, anything!
k, i'm done . . .

---> Signing Off >> Saturday, August 16, 2003 > 05:00 p.m.

so, do you know what the most amazing feeling in the world is - of couse this is coming from my limited experience ; )- when a baby just looks at you and smiles - especially after they've been crying and they just see you and stop crying and smile - it's one of the most genuine things that i think anyone can experience . . . and it is the most amazing feeling! okay, okay, enough with the girly, sappy stuff . . .
so yeah . . . i went to the dentist today and for the first time in my life i walked into a dentist's office and was handed a pillow and blanket "for my comfort" . . . but then, i've never gone to an office where they call themselves an office of "cosmetic dentistry" before . . . help! i need to get out of eagle! i can't deal with living in a place where someone's biggest worry is whether their hairdresser is using the right shade of blond on them because of couse all of the women at the country club will notice if she uses honey blond rather than golden blond! *as she realizes how cynical she sounds*
so anyway . . . both of you have something coming in the mail in the near future (can't remember if i told either of you about this before) . . . i got one for each of us - i just thought they were cool, so . . . hopefully they'll be there in the next couple of days . . .
so i really wanna do a west coast tour at some point . . . wouldn't it be awesome to take like a month and visit Santa Barbara, San Diego, San Francisco, the oregon coast, and Seattle . . . sometime i'm gonna do that! (along with the numerous other things i wanna do before i get out of college . . . hmmm . . . maybe i should make a list)
okay, well, i'm gonna go . . . i think i shall go watch monsters, inc . . . "kitty!" : D
k, i'm done . . . .

---> Signing Off >> Wednesday, August 13, 2003 > 01:47 a.m.

k, so today was highly productive . . . i cleaned, did dishes and laundry, made apple pie and spaghetti, and dyed lara's hair . . . and hopefully tomorrow will be just as productive . . . i have to go to campus and talk to Karen Blacklock (my major advisor) and whoever does the housing stuff, i need to take my sister to driver's ed and pick her up, take lara to work, get my hair trimmed, etc . . .
hey liss, by the by, i love this layout! so gorgeous!
i'm sorry bout the kids, but hey, it's $$ right? it's another small step towards moving out of your house and never having to share a room with Jennifer again . . .
and as for the sidebar, if someone had actually read the posts and seen that someone else didn't remeber how to do the sidebar, someone wouln't have had to do it for me :P
rob, honestly, i know that it sucks having to deal with the whole $$ issue, but just trust that if you're supposed to be at nnu, God'll provide the $$ somehow . . .
and i dunno what situations you're dealing with, but if you feel like you should be telling someone something, tell them . . . tell them in a nice way if you're afraid of hurting them, and trust that if the relationship isn't strong enough to withstand whatever you're dealing with, then it isn't worth it in the first place (as kate once again gives her advice as if anyone actually had any desire to hear it . . .hmm . . .oh well)
and yeah, i think you could write a book to rival les mis in length about the goings on in your head . . .
k, so i have 3 hours till i have to take my sister to driver's ed (she had to pick the 7 o'clock driving time, didn't she?), so i'm gonna go . . . but yay for not having to work tomorrow! :D
k, i'm done . . .

---> Signing Off >> Monday, August 4, 2003 > 02:37 a.m.

so, i know that this is totally random, but it's a lullaby from when i was a kid and i really like it . . . plus it's stuck in my head and i'm hoping that putting the lyrics here will help get them out of my head! :
    Wings
If I could, I would give you wings
To lift you way up in the air
And you could find the rainbow's end
'Cause wings would get you there
If I could, I would give you wings
To carry you out of the storm
They'd take you higher than the wind
And you'd be safe and warm


Wings, little wings
Wings in the wink of an eye
Soon you little wings will be
Big enough to fly


If I could, I would give you wings
To lighten your heart through the years
they'd flutter soft around you then
And dry up all your tears


Wings, little wings
Wings in the wink of an eye
Soon you little wings will be
Big enough to fly



k, i'm done . . .

---> Signing Off >> Monday, August 4, 2003 > 12:16 a.m.

Hey, I love the layout...mucho bien...lol. Anyway, life is interesting. I am still in limbo. I wish that I could just get a job that I really like, or finish a book, or die. Any one of those three would work. Life just sucks right now. I am in a state of weirdness beyond the normal weirdness. Do you think if I made myself throw up I wouldn't have to do anything? Believe it or not, I have considered doing that before. But I hate throwing up with a passion. So. I realized the other day that none of us are going to NNU this fall. Unless by some miracle I end up with five thousand dollars for both semesters...I *stops himself from going into the rant about capitalism for a second time* Do you ever feel like you really want to tell someone something, but you are afraid to, because you don't know how they will react, and you are afraid of a)hurting them, and b)losing them? I feel like that a lot, especially lately. *sighs* I wish that the damn depression would go away, it really isn't very good for morale among the troops. Oh, Issa, you haven't been informed, along with the four hamsters and the hedgehog in my head, I have discovered (at least) four human type people. They are two men Reichen and Adrien, and two women, Callisto and Sam(antha). I would explain it more, but I don't feel like it right now. maybe in the next post. So, it rained today!! That is such a good thing. Especially with all the fires around. I was looking online at a map, and there is one 35 nautical miles from Grangeville, and another 50 miles. I am assuming that means flat like on the ocean, or in the air. So with all the mts, and things they could be hundreds of miles...no not really, but more. Anyway, we went to the river today, and it started out being nice, but then it got cloudy, and stuff, and it was a little too cold to play int he water. And I was unhappy. I am also really, really sore because on Friday my dad and I went and got wood, and I feel ready to die. *sighs* I just thought back on what I just said, and I have been extremely random. Reichen must be in control, along with a little anarchy. I think that they are probably partners. I think that Reichen is with anarchy, Sam is with Intelligence, Callisto is with common-sense (too bad for her huh?) and Adrien is with melancholy. Though they might be partners by default, and not really partners at all. But abstract does kinda go with melancholy...what do you think? I found my Mariah Carey cd...it has One Sweet Day on it, and it inspired me to write a fan fic dealing with Remus and Harry grieving for Sirius...I am thinking (pure conjecture as of yet) that I might extend it and at some point have Draco disown his father, and become friends with H/Hr/R...it could be fun...but then I am also thinking of killing him after that, which will be sad. Hey you know what...I still have a free skate coupon for the skating place in Nampa...I got it like the first (and come to think of it only) time we went skating. That was the night Jenny's car got broken into. Hmmm, I wonder if there is an expiration date? Wasn't that one of the nights of Malibu days? I think everyone else was going bowling, but Nat, Andrea, and Cynthia had gone bowling the night before b/c the skating ring was so full...anyway, I will end this extremely long, extremely random post, and you can all go to bed, if that is your desire.

Rob

---> Signing Off >> Saturday, August 2, 2003 > 11:01 p.m.

HA! Check out this layout! I luvvles it muchos! Yes, it is 4 in the morning and I'm fixing up this blog. But just look at it! I think that this is one of the best layouts I've ever mangaed!

*ahem* Bragging aside... Life has beed, for the most part, dull. If you keep up w/ my personal blog, then you prolly know what's been happening, for the most part. Mi familia went to TX this past week. Jennifer and I were home alone. I managed to avoid her, for the most part, by hiding hanging out at Justin's. Unfortunately, being at Justin's every night this week was a little... uhm... boring/frustrating. I got to watch most of the anime series Dual, and I got to play more Chrono Trigger! But on the down-side, I think that Justin and I got sort of sick of seeing each other. At any rate, he asked me not to come over... guess that was last night. But tonight we're going to do something, if everything works out.

Righto... enough about Justin. ^^; (riiiiiight) I babysat the two little boys that I watched last summer (Katie is there regular babysitter, but I took over while she was out of town) a few times during the past week. I hate to say it, but those two are demons. Bryce absolutely refused to eat lunch today (even though I served it because he was complaining about being hungry). I ended up putting the food away entirely. I told him that since he didn't want to eat his lunch at lunch time, he wasn't going to get anything else to eat while I was over there. No snack, no lunch, no orange (he was begging for an orange). About an hour after that, he came up to me and said that he was hungry. So I fed him, and he actually sat and ate it all. :D Ah... psychology...

That's really all that's happening in my life. Oh, I wasn't sure if you gus wanted to change icons for the posts or not... I'm revamping the current post icons. I changed the icons on the side-bar because these ones look more classy, I think. (And they match the layout.) Kate: Hope you like the intro I wrote for you~! ;)

---> Signing Off >> Saturday, August 2, 2003 > 04:19 a.m.